The Era of Mistress Cindy Begins

Following the aborted party, the health issues of her master and some of her own, put a strain on their relationship.  I continued to be a sounding board as a friend, but she needed to spend more time working on her own relationship.   We conversed less as time went on.

So I needed to find a new mistress.  Searching through some Yahoo groups, I found someone who sounded interesting.  I was in a mummification group and saw her as a member.  I sent her a short IM.  I do not believe she was on at the time.  The next time I was on, I saw that she had responded.  Then she appeared and I asked her if she cared to chat.  She did – but made an excuse that she had a cold, was on meds and could not be on for long. 

Well we hit it off pretty well.  By the end of the conversation we had discussed where we were from, our jobs, families and all kinds of fun interests.  I know all this because I saved the conversation.  We talked about mummification and bondage.  We named what kind of wrappings we preferred way back when and our favorite story and movie sites.  We hit is off quite well.

The conversation was solely about bondage and submission – nothing about CD or feminization.  I did not see any interest in that in her profile or her groups.  The closest we got to discussing that was when she asked what clothing or equipment I owned.  I mentioned I had a hobble skirt in this part of the conversation…

Mistress Cindy: So, what articles (of clothing) do you have?

Sissy Amy: Catsuit, gloves, hood, inflatable gag, hobble skirt

Mistress Cindy: cool...just one question...

Sissy Amy: sure

Mistress Cindy: Is the skirt for you?

Sissy Amy: The latex skirt keeps legs together - can be for either sex.  it's confining on the wearer.  Great to wrap one wearing it underneath

Sissy Amy: it is a hobble

Mistress Cindy: Cool, learn something new everyday...

I replaced the yahoo names we had at the time for clarification, but that would not have been a clue when this conversation was originally held.  You can see she focused right in on the skirt.  I did not read her as hoping it was a skirt for me.  She somewhat seemed relieved I might say.  Of course, look at her postings today.  She ended up chatting with me for quite an extended period of time.  So much for her cold.

The next installment will show how the relationship evolved.

A Note from Sissy Amy

I hope you all are enjoying the blog.  A few of you have commented directly to the blog or to Mistress Cindy or me on Fetlife.  We quite enjoy the comments and suggestions.  Please continue to offer them, and where appropriate we will respond.

I also wanted to make sure that you are aware that I continue to update the entry "A Goal of Mistress Cindy" in the March 2011 folder.  If you enjoy those videos be sure to check back for updates from time to time.

Hopefully, I will have a new blog entry very shortly.  This next one begins my time with Mistress Cindy.

A Little History – V

First I have to apologize to Mistress Cindy and you my readers and followers.  I should have posted my next installment much sooner.  My delay even caused Mistress Cindy to post her last comment.  Thank you all for your restraint in responding to Her appeal.  Hopefully she will simply forgive me.

As I mentioned in the last posting, B was my Mistress, and we conversed on the phone and by IM quite frequently and for a long period of time.  However, since she was a submissive herself, we had never met in person despite not living very far from each other.  She had recently moved to a new home and she and her master were planning on having a play party and house warming.  She asked me whether I would like to serve at the party.

 

This was an amazing development.  It was a dream come true. 

B explained to me the terms of my service.  I would be plugged and secured in my steel chastity belt. I would be fully decked out in my satin French maid outfit, complete with petticoat.  I would be tightly corseted, in silk stockings and with a locking collar.  Black patent 6” heel shoes with pointy toes would be locked onto my feet.  I may have hobbles and / or chains on my ankles, wrists or elsewhere and I would be completely made up quite pretty.  I would be available to be used by the guests, but I would be able to establish what my limits were.  Following the end of my maid service at the end of the evening, I would be secured wth heavy locks inside a steel cage that B and her master owned until they decided to release me. 

I accepted her terms and began to plan and prepare for the evening which was about a month away.  As the time grew closer I became even more excited.  Finally my service was to begin the next evening. 

I received an emergency call from B.  Her master had a very serious incident that required hospitalization.  She was an absolute wreck and would remain like that for weeks.  The party was obviously cancelled.  For more than a month afterward the doctors tried to evaluate his condition.  He was later to recover, but the party was not rescheduled.  I was very disappointed, but glad that his health issue was eventually resolved.

Again I apologized for the delay in posting. 

A thought from Mistress Cindy

Thank you all for checking out Amy's little blog here. We are now over 6000 views which is way beyond anything either of expected! Amy is very excited about it though she does pretend to be shy. That being said, I'm a little upset with Amy. She hasn't posted in a while (against my direct orders!). I realize that she is dealing with some personal issues and while I respect that, she DID say she was going to post. So my dear friends, I am looking for ideas of how I should punish Amy. You all will decide her fate. I am looking forward to reading what you offer up as suggestions! Regards, Mistress Cindy

A little History – IV

Another wonderful product is Instant Messaging.  When I first started exploring IM, I conversed with a number of interesting people.  I would find them in particular Yahoo interest groups – primarily bondage related.  As I mentioned before, IM oddly allows you to assess the other party much better than you think it would.  And so it was that I found a very interesting woman.  She was actually a sub to a master.  She had a great deal of real life experience in a D/s relationship.  Let’s call her “B”. 

B’s master was very skilled and they both were very involved with the D/s community.  She experienced many different types of control from what she wore under clothing to how she would be restrained at home to how and when she had permission to do everyday functions.  B knew I was a sub, and after a significant amount o chatting between us her master gave her permission to control me via IM.  B also knew I liked feminine apparel. 

By now I had accumulated a bunch more toys.  Handcuffs, fixed hinged handcuffs, wrist cuffs, ankle cuffs, several types of hoods, collars, nipple clamps, a crop, a leather armbinder, a spandex mummybag and much more.  I enjoyed experimenting as much as I could with these items, although in an online fashion.  While we were not in contact every day, we did converse quite frequently.  I was required to wear panties every day and occasionally to wear pantyhose to the office under my business suit.  At night I may have to place myself in some form of self-bondage, fill myself with some enema concoction or subject myself to some type of discipline (crop, nipple clamps etc.).

I do have one funny story.  One day in the office I was wearing pantyhose under my suit.  Mid-day I was waiting outside my boss’ office (offices all had glass walls).  For some reason my clothing felt a bit odd.  I reached behind me (backside facing a colleague’s office) and felt a large tear in my suit pants.  It was a large tear.  Because I was wearing the pantyhose, I had not noticed the air flow that normally would have been obvious.  The hole was so big I held the reports in my hand behind me covering the hole best I could and hurried back to my office.  Fortunately, I had a light trench coat in my office.  I put it on and quickly headed out of the office onto public transportation to get to a department store to buy some new pants.  I returned to the office to change into them.  I worried that I had been exposed for a long time and no one said anything.  I assume no one noticed.  I would have been so humiliated.

The next segment will describe a proposal to meet and serve.  Stay tuned.

A Little History – III

Living on the west coast made access easy to all things bondage and crossdress related it seemed.  I started to collect more bondage equipment.  I became aware of the wonderful characteristics of latex and would buy a few sissy items.  Panties, foundation garments, pantyhose and heels.  I still had no Mistress, but that did not stop me from accumulating items that turned me on.  From Versatile Fashions I acquired a pretty satin maid’s dress with a multilayer petticoat.  From Seattle I bought a full coverage heavy latex catsuit.  And finally, I acquired a stainless steel Access Denied chastity belt with front and back covers.  This belt requires that the penis be placed into a steel tube, bent down, attached to the front plate and locked to the waist belt.  Once the lock is set, there is no access to any of your naughty bits and you present a fairly flat profile.  There is a back plate that also accommodates a plug that can also be locked on.  I assure you that anyone locked in this belt will do whatever the keyholder demands, if it is a condition of their release.  The back plug must be released periodically – for a short time at least – to allow bowel movements.  Otherwise, the belt can be worn indefinitely.  Another feature of this belt is that the wearer has no choice but to sit when using the bathroom.

 

I added to my wardrobe with a sexy latex hobble skirt.  It is heavy latex and goes from waist to ankles.  When the bottom zipper is drawn closed and you are in 5” or higher heels, there is only one way to walk – mincing steps.  I have to admit I am a boot lover too.  So I had to pick up some patent leather lace-up knee high boots with pointy toes.  Pointed toe shoes are the sexiest in my estimation.  Fashion isn’t comfortable, of course, but a Mistress would always take sexy over comfort.  I also invested in a 28” corset.  I made sure it had heavy boning and garters.  I figured that this would allow me to look like a tarty maid.  I also bought a pair of sexy patent leather 6” heels with straps.  This allowed me to place a small lock through the strap hole to lock them tightly on my feet.  They too had pointed toes.

So how would all this look you might ask?  Well here are some images.  The quality of the shots is not great, but you get the idea.  

The first is me in a full body stocking – I love these – with my chastity belt and 28” corset.

The second is me in my maid uniform with petticoat, latex hobble skirt and knee high lace-up boots.

 This last one is me in my maid uniform, petticoat, stockings, and locking 6” heels.

I hope you enjoy these and would love to hear what you think.  I will be travelling to Florida for the next week visiting my father.  Hopefully I will check in to the blog and see some interesting comments – good or bad.

A Little History – II

Before I go on, it may be better to go back a few years. A prequel if you will. My first interest in bondage came from reading old issues of “Penthouse Letters.” While the other common men’s magazines were interesting, I found I was really turned on more by the written word, and especially if it had a female domination aspect to it. The bondage seemed fantastic. Soon I realized that FemDom combined will some form of force feminization or humiliation was an even better combination.

One day in an adult bookstore I saw my first Centurians magazines and Devonshire Productions videos. Centurians had so many wonderful kinky products. Leather, restraints, cuffs and collars. It all looked so delicious. So I bought something from them. Probably some cuffs. More importantly, this put me on their mailing list. At the same time I picked up a Devonshire Productions (“DP”) video. They were fantastic. The bondage was superb, the positions were very strenuous – almost always posed in the same dungeon backdrop - and the models were gorgeous. Years ago men were really not featured in many bondage videos.  I was soon on their mailing list as well.

As the magazine lists and annual sales came in from Centurians, I noticed that they had some Forced Feminization magazines. Mostly the slaves were forced to obey because their Mistress had placed them in chastity – one sold by Centurians – to make them obedient and compliant. Usually these Mistresses used some sort of forced feminization techniques to enhance their slave’s compliance. I began to wonder what it would be like if a woman pierced my nipples and penis and installed a frenum with breakoff screws or placed me on hormones in order to make me her sissified slave. At the same time all the DP vids I was watching were of women – always in very high heels and tight corsets - forced to endure strict bondage, usually secured standing in one place in what one would presumably be many hours. Many times in a strict armbinder and leather hood or tight mummification.

Here are two examples. Both just fantastic. The armbinders, the way the head is pulled back, and both are actually wearing ballet heels. I can imagine the pump gag is fully inflated against the hood, the corset is crushingly tight, and the collar is secured with a very heavy lock. Excellent use of straps for immobilization as well.

All these images started to jell and form my psyche. Bondage, femdom, femdom through forced feminization, chastity, lovely sexy models, suffering, pleasing a Mistress, humiliation, and physical changes beyond my control that would add to my submissiveness. I wanted to be one of the bondage models for DP. Subjected to chastity and feminization before being put on display in strict bondage for their videos. Or even one of the stories in the Centurion’s magazines. “Feminized Chastity Slave in Constant Bondage Becomes Sissy Maid to Mistress and her Friends” might have been the story header. It would be a story of complete and permanent transformation combined with a life of strict bondage, total servitude and obedience.

I will close today’s post with some of those early images that formed who I am today. I will certainly post more in the future.

First – This video cover is perhaps one of the most formative images for me. It is the cover jacket of a video of a woman who delivers her significant other to a castle where the Mistress is charged with transforming him through heavy doses of hormones, 24/7 strict bondage and obedience training over a period of six months. Although done in the 1970’s it is a fantastic video. I wished I was the transformed sissy being returned to her owner. The cover jacket was fantastic. Armbinder, dungeon, latex, nipple clamps, pump gag, chains, corset, sensory deprivation hood and posture collar.

The next series were from the various “Forced Womanhood / Slave Piercing” genre distributed by Centurians.

 These images are stunning to me. The frenum chastities, the armbinders or ceiling chains, the nipple rings generally attached to chastities, strict corsets, ballet boots or very high heels, and the use of straps, gags, collars and locks give a sense of hopelessness of their situation. Further, each of these sissies appears that they have been or are likely to be in their current state of bondage and discomfort for a very long time. Possibly this is to build up their endurance for more strict training to follow or to keep a sissy out of the way while the Mistress enjoys some simple pleasures, visits with friends, possibly goes to work for the day, or heads to the comfort of her bed for the evening. Wherever she is, one can imagine that the Mistress will take great pleasure with the knowledge that her sissy is not getting into any mischief, and that she anxiously awaits her Mistress’s return – hopefully to release her from her predicament and not to add further torment. The Mistress, of course, has no reason to lessen a sissy’s suffering unless she is needed to perform some duty or service for the Mistress or her friends.

Any thoughts or comments?